Romantic Moments

I looked at Will hoping that Ashely was going to be ok.

i made myself italien like i was going to....

I hurled all over the side of the road and puked and coughed and puked some more. It was coming out of my noes. I couldn't stop puking.

when it was ready i sat down at my table and ate alone like always.

*eating*

"Babe I'll take care of her." I said when I noticed Will starting to look like he was going to throw up. I got out and held her hair and rubbed her back.

I looked at Will. This was going to be pretty soon.

"Shhhh sweetie its ok." I kept rubbing her back

Hearing my best friend's voice did four things to me.
1. I was comforted
2. I got really angry
3. I started crying and puking more
4. I started hurting.
I was comforted because I knew she would always be there for me and our babies, I was angry because Will wasn't faithfull to me and put something big in between all of us, I was crying and puking more because of all the emotions running through me and I was hurting because of the puking. I held onto the letter with all my might then I fell so I had to brace myself. When I braced myself, the letter fell out.

"Whats this?" I picked up the letter and read it. I started to tear up. I put the letter in my pocket and kept rubbing Ashely's back.

I couldn't stop crying but I could feel the puking was stopping. I knew she would hate me for keeping this from her, but what could she expect? I'm just as messed up as she is in this whole mess.

I whispered in her ear. "You want him dont you..."

I stopped puking and was wiping my mouth when she whispered to me. I whispered back I will always love him, I aways love youu, and youu both deserve the best. No matter how many times I told myself this, the feelings the guilt the anger I couldn't control.

when i was done eating i felt tired so i went to my flopped down onto my bed and fell asleep. its been a long freaking day.

"Take him...."

i slept dreamlessly...i felt like i floating in my mind without anything to jolt me awake.

I want you to have him, consider him my gift to you. I love youu Connie and as long as I have youu he will never know that my babies are his, and youu can have your family youu never had. Just don't turn your back on me. I couldn't believe the words coming out of my mouth. My heart was hers and that was something that I never thought I could admit. Will was my everything, my fiance my all, but he chose his bed and now he could lie in it. Connie had been there for me the first day of grade one. That was something I will never forget. My friendship with her and the live of my babies was the only thing keeping me here on this Earth.

I nodded and helped her into the car.

Ibuckled up and Waited for Will to drive me home. I texted Connie I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused you.

It's fine...I reached over and held onto Will's hand.

I saw and looked away. No matter how much I could and would give up for my bestfriend this hurt to much to watch. A picture rolled through my mind like I was watching it from a movie. He held my hand and looked into my eyes Baby youu are my everything my all in all and I won't do anything to hurt youu. He bent down on one knee with my parents there watching, Ashley Price, Will youu hold my hand for the rest of your life, be there to battle my fights and I yours, Will youu be my one and only, Will youu be my wife? I will never forget the joy and excitement that came with that day and the tears began to run down my face again. Will was my everything. I didn't want him to know about my babies being his, because I didn't want him to feel obligated to be with me.


I sat alone. Will had come last week to pick up his things. He looked at me once, and gave me a hug before he left. I don't know why Connie didn't come with him, but I knew I still had feelings for him. I know I still love Will. My Will. No he is Connie's Will now. My heart is still broken by the pain he has caused. I have named my babies. Oh I'm having a boy and a girl. My boy will be called Alexander William Price and my daughter's name will be Ashley Connie Price. Alex is my Dad's name and William is my son's father. Ashley is my Mom's and my name and Connie is my best friend who is having their brother or sister. I haven't really talked to Connie lately, so I don't know if she is having a boy or a girl. Well I'm about to head outt and start my baby shopping. The doctor said to plan for their arival because they could be here as early as 34 weeks. I put my pen down on the table and closed my book and placed it beside. My journal has been my only friend in the past 5 weeks. Everything gets blurred together without it. With effort I pulled myself off the couch and got my flip flops on. Being pregnant with twins in the middle of July was hott and uncomfortable but at least I have a pair of sandles that I can wear because my feet are uncontrolably swelled now. I walked outt the door, closed it and locked it behind me and jumped into my new car and began to drive to the nearest Wal Mart. I got out and locked my doors and began to walk inside.